Love Confirmed or (my take on Allume 2012)

That’s what this weekend was to me–
Love confirmed.

In so many ways.
Love binding up and bringing close.
Redeeming.
Giving.
Receiving.
Confirming.

I went to Allume (a writing-blogging-conference) with my eyes scanning for these answers…

#1) Is it worth it?  Does God want it?
Is it real? — all the friendships and connections and my writing?
And sigh — is it worth it?
To spend time on these words in this space?

#2) Is my hand open?  Are my words reality-overflowing?
Do I enter this online space with freedom and purpose?
With His Truth?
How do I mesh in-the-flesh with these blinking icons that often seem to shout the artificial?
Because on one hand we say we write waiting on His timing, His wording, His leading, but on the otherhand there is the offered:
“Build Your Platform” and “Promote Your Branding”
And here is the tension for me.

And there’s a bit-of-junior-higher in all of us, I think.
Where we wander a room and look for our spot,
At which table we should sit…
Where we hope someone is saving a place–
For us.

And I saw a bit of that too–
The frantic-running-climbing where stats equate value and self is the focus and
I wouldn’t be honest if I didn’t say I saw it…
A bit.

And I wondered about these friends I would room with and felt I knew with.
And wanted to be with– for the first time minus the avatar-glazing.
Would they be who I thought?
Who would they be when we tip-toed-out from behind the monitor?
And they were–
A love confirmed.

Kelly with her care-taking and boldness and kindness…
Rachel with her uplifting and sharing and teaching…
Ruth with her laughing and processing and heart-meshing…
Sacred deep-sharing and prayers in the darkness and silly self-stories that left us,
Leaning against hotel hallways doubled-over in snorting laughter.
A love so confirmed.

And so I went to every session I didn’t plan to go to–
Because for some reason He wanted me there.
And I tried to listen closely for
Wisdom and practicals and how-to’s and mostly,
For His loved confirmed.

And Elizabeth who called out–
“Fear as a liar and love as courageous.”
I needed to hear her because I’ve entered her space,
Hiding in corners because of our differences.
But I want words that carry,
That move hearts and share journeys.
And for years she’s moved my heart,
Her pain and her healing,
A seeking-truth-teller of–
God’s love unchanging.

And Mary who said,
“Choose small, but tend large”
And strained out my courage and banished safe living.
Who read my words in her session,
And gifted me boldness to keep on with this sharing,
Whose light on dark canvass
Is now whispering–
His love.

And Sally, who pressed for that First Love forgotten,
Where His voice proclaims beauty,
And my true words are actions.
Because my heart quakes to know,
Our children will whisper-
“I listened to everything you ever did.”
Where I am a piece in the puzzle of–
His love.

And Ann concurred–
Stoop low.
Bend down close to write on lives in secret.

Where the most feared should be–
An echo of earth’s clapping,
While Heaven is silent…

Because–
The secret of good writing, is good living in secret. ~Ann

Because–
Your writing is only as credible as your life. ~Ann

Because–
The words of your story belong to the Word of God. ~Ann

Because–
Having Christian convictions never negates Christ’s compassions. ~Ann

 

And then I think of those love words sent from home–
To be so far away and see messages from
Home-friends who know me in and out.
Who cheered me on in this journey
And who rejoiced in my JOY.

And from online friends, who couldn’t be there…
Who swept away the entangling web of envy,
But instead chose a friendship that–
Rejoices even in the undeserved blessing of another.

And my husband always says…
That is the litmus test.
Friends who weep with those who weep,
But maybe sometimes more telling–
Friends who rejoice with those who rejoice.
A love confirmed.

And this husband who packed lunches,
Who juggled work loads and laundry loads,
Who shouldered– the load.
Who gave resources and asked questions and listened to me pour out my joyful-thanks-stories,
Who brought excited, hugging, screaming children to airports in the rain,
Because he wanted to show–
A love confirmed.

 

And on the final night…
We sang– God’s light of the world,
Who came down into our darkness,
Who opened my eyes that I might see.
Beauty that made my heart adore Him,
With hope of a life lived through Him.

And my eyes were lifted up.
Every heart in the room reminded that His love is what compels us.
Answers given.
Purpose ignited.
Heart overflowing with–
His love confirmed.

…so that we who were the first to hope in Christ might be to the praise of his glory. ~Ephesians 1:12

 

 

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  • http://twitter.com/dayspring82 Stacy Williams

    Kara this is absolutely beautiful! Meeting you was one of my favorite parts of Allume! Thank you for being so sweet and welcoming to me:)

    • http://thechuppies.com/ Kara @ The Chuppies

      I honestly… honestly. felt the same way…
      Appreciated our conversations and just your kindness and your heart for looking to God in the middle of pain and struggle.
      Will be praying about these upcoming winter months… Love, K

      • http://twitter.com/dayspring82 Stacy Williams

        thank you:) I will take all the prayers I can get!

  • http://www.joyfilleddays.com/ Sarah Beals

    Beautifully written, Kara. So happy you had such a refreshing time! God is so good!

    • http://thechuppies.com/ Kara @ The Chuppies

      Hey you :)
      Thank you for holding down the fort and for your beautiful posts…
      You know how I feel about you…you should’ve sent me some business cards to hand out because I told several about you and how you’ve been a Titus 2 for me. Thank you…

  • thebettermom

    Beautiful Kara!

    • http://thechuppies.com/ Kara @ The Chuppies

      Ruth…
      I’m so thankful for you…and your card meant a lot to me…
      Thank you for taking a chance on a newbie writer back at the beginning and inviting me into the family of The Better Mom. It has been such a blessing in my life and in my writing. Love, K

  • http://myhometableau.com/ Johanna Hanson

    Beautiful, Kara! So, so glad you could go. And so glad it was an encouraging, uplifting time.

    • http://thechuppies.com/ Kara @ The Chuppies

      Thank you so much Johanna… :)

  • http://www.barefoothippiegirl.com/ Barefoot Hippie Girl

    I am glad to read of how God spoke to your heart and challenged you, and confirmed your purpose. So glad you could go!

    • http://thechuppies.com/ Kara @ The Chuppies

      Thank you so much Bernadette… :)

  • http://www.facebook.com/thisgals.journey.3 Thisgals Journey

    Oh, Kara, once again you’ve moved my heart to tears. You’ve managed to sneak into the room where God and I have been having a private chat and confirmed everything I thought He was whispering to me. Thank you.

    • http://thechuppies.com/ Kara @ The Chuppies

      You don’t even know how much you were missed.
      We all said it…
      I love that you’re having those private chats with God…and I’m thankful for our friendship….really thankful.

  • http://simplystriving.wordpress.com/ Nikki

    What a beautiful recap, Kara. I’m so delighted for you!!
    {{HUGS}}
    It’s all about love…and this lifts hearts up in praise.

    • http://thechuppies.com/ Kara @ The Chuppies

      I ended up talking about you several times Nikki…
      (good stuff :) )
      Thanks for being happy with and for me…a good friend.
      My favorite part was singing “Here I am to worship…” at the ended. You’re so right…hearts lifted up in praise!

  • Becky Daye

    Ah, what a lovely post! And how like God to get you to go to every session that you didn’t want to go to! Wish I could have met you there (I was there too, but oh, my word- so many people!!!), but thankful that I can meet you HERE!

    • http://thechuppies.com/ Kara @ The Chuppies

      That is my life story I think…”my plans” always pretty different than His.
      His–always MUCH better.
      What is your site Becky? I’d love to stop by :)

  • http://www.facebook.com/people/Angela-Richter/1632533801 Angela Richter

    JUST LOVE this! what a beautiful post from such a beautiful woman. Although it wasn’t my year to go and I had total peace about that, my biggest regret was not meeting you, really, YOU! We are kindred friend! So glad God met you there!

    Angela

    • http://thechuppies.com/ Kara @ The Chuppies

      Angela, that means so much to me…thank you so much!
      And I love what you said about having total peace about it…but I really would love to give you a real hug sometime.
      I think we need a Better Mom conference…maybe not conference…just hang-out-connecting-time…

  • gracelaced

    I couldn’t have said it better. Bosom friend, kindred spirit indeed. Love u.

    • http://thechuppies.com/ Kara @ The Chuppies

      So… am I Anne and you are Diana?
      Or are you Anne and I’m Diana?
      Can I please be Anne?
      Cuz I really think I have an advantage with the whole red-hair-bit and all…

      We should write a post together where you just finish my sentences for me.

  • http://dogfuranddandelions.com/ Elizabeth @ DogFur&Dandelions

    Sounds like you had an amazing time, Kara! So happy for you :)

    • http://thechuppies.com/ Kara @ The Chuppies

      Thank you Elizabeth… hope someday we can “come out from behind the computer screen” as well :)

  • Kari

    What an encouragement to me reading this!!!!! So glad you were able to go, and I especially love what you said about Jason. It really is a blessing to have a sacrificial husband. I am blessed beyond anything I ever have deserved (which isn’t much) every day by Peter, and I appreciated that part of your story. Praying for you as your decompress and think about everything even with the busyness of life! God bless you!!

    • http://thechuppies.com/ Kara @ The Chuppies

      Thank you Kari…
      He did a great job (even did 7 loads of laundry)…and I could tell they had tons of fun…and I was SO ready to be home with all of them…and they ate at Baja Fresh and Carl’s Jr and The Black Bear Diner and ordered pizza and Subway…and now mama’s home and it’s back to “real life” :)

  • http://www.facebook.com/kellywsmith Kelly Smith

    Absolutely BEAUTIFUL! You captured in words the expressions of my heart as well! You are so gifted and beautiful from the inside, out! What a joy, blessing, inspiration and honor to share time with you this weekend! I am still processing all the amazing things I learned from spending time witnessing the REAL you – a gentle and quiet spirit filled with the love of Christ, so willing to extend yourself to others in genuine love for them and faithful obedience to your First Love! Thank you for allowing me to share this weekend with you and learn together from all we experienced! Love you, sweet sister! :)

    • http://thechuppies.com/ Kara @ The Chuppies

      Kelly… I really don’t know where begin to write out words I want to….

      There’s just too much to say about the time with you and Ruth and Rachel…it was just a huge God-gift to me to find that you were MORE than I’d even dared to hope for… in our conversations about parenting, and heart for Christ and love for coming alongside other women & mamas.

      I’m just so thankful.

  • Melody

    I’m glad you were so encouraged, Kara! Keep writing boldly!

    • http://thechuppies.com/ Kara @ The Chuppies

      Thank you Melody :)

  • Kelli Wommack

    Kara, I was not there… but thank you for inviting me to experience it after all. Your words made me feel a part of something greater than a conference could ever contain… a movement of sorts… of a GREATER LOVE confirmed.

    • http://thechuppies.com/ Kara @ The Chuppies

      It was GREATER (His love)…and isn’t it always that way with God…He crosses barriers and divides and when I see that happening…it’s just so encouraging and amazing.

  • A Mama’s Story

    This is so beautiful!!! :) I haven’t written my post yet, but was absolutely not expecting the impact it would have! It was great to visit with you this weekend. Blessings to you and thanks again for sharing such a beautiful testimony. :)

    • http://thechuppies.com/ Kara @ The Chuppies

      Thank you…I’m so glad the weeked was that way for you too.
      Let me know when you get a post up…I’d love to read it. Love, K

  • Jessica Holmes

    Such wonderful thoughts Kara. Thankful for all the lessons learned. Thankful for the way you have expressed them here. Thankful for time talking through the lunch line with you. Blessings :)

    • http://thechuppies.com/ Kara @ The Chuppies

      Jessica…our conversation was one of my favorites from this past weekend… I haven’t even looked at all the business cards yet, but when I do…I will come visit and say “hi” over at your place :)
      Thank you for sharing your hard-story…but also the exciting new joy gift that God has blessed you and your husband with…just. so. fun!!!

  • http://twitter.com/Angietolpin Angie Tolpin

    Very well written Kara… I was personally blessed to meet and spend time getting to know you better. So thankful we live within city limits or Portland… looking forward to knowing the “real life” of the chuppies! Love you sister

    • http://thechuppies.com/ Kara @ The Chuppies

      I felt the same way Angie…
      Especially on the way home :)
      It was so great to process with you and brainstorm with you and share stories that have absolutely NOTHING to do with writing-blogging :)
      I think our families would really enjoy each other…let’s do it!
      And I’m thrilled for you about the book…so so exciting! Love you too!

  • http://tuningmyhearttopraise.blogspot.com/ ro elliott

    this is beautiful…maybe next year…so thankful love was confirmed…because all else will be be burnt…blessings to you~

    • http://thechuppies.com/ Kara @ The Chuppies

      Thank you so much…and I hope next year!
      Lord willing, maybe He’ll give me the opportunity to go again…it really was encouraging.

  • http://twitter.com/RachelWojo Rachel Wojnarowski

    So blessed to know you and share the bond of love in Christ. Many future blessings anticipated! :)

    • http://thechuppies.com/ Kara @ The Chuppies

      You know how I feel… ;)
      So thankful for you because of so many things that have NOTHING to do with blogging or writing or online…

  • http://twitter.com/inspired2action Kat @Inspired2Action

    Just beautiful, Kara! It was a joy to meet you.

    • http://thechuppies.com/ Kara @ The Chuppies

      I felt the same way…love talkin’ books :) I had hoped to meet you…

  • Living Waters by LeAnn

    Just a really lovely post. I love your writing and appreciate your love of family and our Savior. You are very talented and should continue to write; because you do touch our hearts.

    Blessings!

    • http://thechuppies.com/ Kara @ The Chuppies

      You are my most-faithful and most-longest encourager, I think LeAnn,,,thank you!

  • ddkays

    Thanks for sharing…love the pictures. :-)

    • http://thechuppies.com/ Kara @ The Chuppies

      Thank you…pretty fun! :)

  • Dianewbailey

    Beautiful, wish we had more time to know each other in Real LIfe, but On line will do!

    • http://thechuppies.com/ Kara @ The Chuppies

      Thanks Diane :)

  • cynthia

    What a beautiful experience! Thank you, for allowing us to share it, through your eyes. Many blessings!

    • http://thechuppies.com/ Kara @ The Chuppies

      Thank you Cynthia…for taking the time.
      Love, K

  • http://www.crumbsfromhistable.com/ tinuviel

    So glad God gave you that gift! These peeks into the conference bless me. Thank you for sharing with those of us who couldn’t go. May the words you heard and the friends you made continue to bear much lasting fruit in your life.

    • http://thechuppies.com/ Kara @ The Chuppies

      Thank you…and that’s my exact prayer…let it “stick” Lord…let it sink in. Keep my eyes and heart focused in the right place.
      Thank you for taking the time to read and connect… Love, K

  • http://www.onefunmom.com Christy

    I’m so glad you got to go. And thank you for the introduction to a few bloggers I’ve never read. And thank you for writing so beautifully. :)

    • http://thechuppies.com/ Kara @ The Chuppies

      You know you are one of the ones I especially would’ve loved to hug in real life… thank you for being happy with/for me friend.

  • http://www.marydemuth.com Mary DeMuth

    I love this post, and I love your heart. I pray that reading your words in the talk encouraged you that you’re on the right path, that your writing is beautiful, and that God sees.

    • http://thechuppies.com/ Kara @ The Chuppies

      Thank you Mary…and that’s exactly what it did. It was a huge encouragement to me. Just a glimpse of God’s kindness…an unexpected gift.

      I’m sticking an awesome (as in 3-year-old-stick-figure-awesome) picture in the mail for Julia today that Lydi drew for her… :)
      Praying, especially for answers from the new doctor.

  • Denise Oldham

    Enjoyed this.

    • http://thechuppies.com/ Kara @ The Chuppies

      Thank you Denise :)

  • http://twitter.com/DanieAtDomestic Daniele

    So glad to have met you Kara – your heart, your spirit so blessed me. I wished we had more time! :) Beautiful post, thank you for sharing….

    • http://thechuppies.com/ Kara @ The Chuppies

      Thank you Daniele… I would love a Better Mom gathering someday.
      For me, that was such a huge gift…to have some conversations with depth… with a handful of women who love the Lord whole-heartedly.
      And our brief interaction made me want to read you blog, where I definitely know I need to stop in often…that call to pause and rest in Him…and stop the racing-racing-hurry-rush…it is SO something I want Him to change in me.

  • http://twitter.com/lifefordessert Logan Wolfram

    Kara, This made me cry. So beautifully written. What a blessing wrapped up in poetry and truth spattered amidst punctuations. Love your heart. Thank you for sharing.

    • http://thechuppies.com/ Kara @ The Chuppies

      Thank you Logan…
      And yes, I have major issues with punctuation-spattering :)
      I appreciate your words and I also appreciate all you did to make the conference happen. I’ve planned large events before and I know it is a LOT of work… :) Thank you!

  • http://www.facebook.com/jenferguson1 Jennifer ‘Miner’ Ferguson

    Wonderful — this community, this breath of life, this hope that He calls us forth.

    • http://thechuppies.com/ Kara @ The Chuppies

      Thanks Jen…
      Soli Deo Gloria was one of the first places I ever saw that there could be genuine community online. Thank you… Love, K

  • Elizabeth

    So so beautiful. Though my heart’s desire was to attend, I could not. You share beautifully and generously. And in such a beautiful voice. I am so pleased to have found you today at Jennifer’s and hope to follow more of your story and words. Bless you, new friend. Thanks for your generous sharing and your honest words, yes honest and real.

    • http://thechuppies.com/ Kara @ The Chuppies

      Thank you Elizabeth…for stopping by and for your kind words…
      That was me last year…I so wanted to go, but it wasn’t His plan.
      Just stopped by your spot and I see you are a stage ahead of us (I’ll be back). I need that kind of wisdom and input. Love that you call your husband “The Patient One” (that’s how it is in our family too :) )
      Love, K

  • http://www.facebook.com/ChristinaRFox Christina Fox

    I have asked all these same questions, time and again. I so wanted to go the conference but couldn’t make it happen. Thanks for sharing what you learned there. There is so much in this one post for me to take away. You have no idea how much I needed this today:) Thanks!

    • http://thechuppies.com/ Kara @ The Chuppies

      I’m so thankful something in my ramblings was helpful Christina…
      I knew I remembered you…went back to your site and “re-found” your great book list and remembered wandering in there from your gospel coalition post. Would have loved to meet you…maybe someday. :)

  • http://lauraboggess.com Laura Boggess

    What a joy to see your smiling face tucked in here! I love seeing you shine in the midst of all this beauty. It sounds like a wonderful experience.such good words from some lovely hearts. Thank you for taking me there.

    • http://thechuppies.com/ Kara @ The Chuppies

      Thank you Laura… so much!
      I know it was a gift from Him to be there.
      And then also to come home to my guy and our crew… :)

  • elizabethesther

    Beloved, thank you for this. Your heart shone through your eyes and you held me up as I gave my talk. I will always cherish you. Thank you, thank you. ((hugs))

    • http://thechuppies.com/ Kara @ The Chuppies

      Someday i’ll write and share why connecting meant so much…
      But just know, reading your “light” posts and sensing the healing and freedom has been beautiful and lifting.
      I have no expectation of always agreeing with you :)
      But that’s not the point is it?
      God’s love can bridge divides and there is kinship in running towards His marvelous light…together.
      If you’re every up in Oregon….. :)

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